My brain is not working today. I feel like I am completely void of useful information and am completely unmotivated. I shared this with my brother today. He said I could take a break, since I am on vacation, and I appreciate that. I guess the fact of the matter is I need to do this. Even if the words don’t mean anything, I am making myself put them down. I need to get them out there, on to pages and even if they don’t mean anything I need to write them down.
I’ve always had a love affair with words. I find it truly breathtaking how words can transport you to another time and place. I love how they can make you laugh or make you cry. I love how they can put you into the shoes of someone else and how they can create this feeling within you that makes you understand so completely exactly what they are saying.
When I was a junior in high school my parents gave me a pocket dictionary and a vocabulary builder…for Christmas. They were some of my favorite gifts and I still have them both. I truly love words. I love to write them and I really love to read them. It makes me sad how words are no longer loved the way they used to be. Even myself, I don’t make the effort to expand my vocabulary, or to write in a way that makes people have to think about what I’m writing. I put the words there and they read them and that is it. It’s not like in the days of Shakespeare or Austen. I don’t use words to paint pictures. I just write words.
Even those last few lines made little to no sense. I feel like today I am trying to just get my words down. I am tired, but it’s a good tired. I feel like I am getting the rest that I need and that I am going to go back completely refreshed.
I’m excited about my job. It’s funny to me how perception changes everything. I used to dread going to work because my job was so draining, but I enjoy the work that I do. I find great satisfaction in helping students find their path. I recently volunteered to work on our career center and I think that has to do with the fact that I want to help students figure out where they are going next. It is difficult to know where to take the second step and I want to be a part of helping students with those types of choices.
Today I feel like I have kind of failed you. I know that these words were written today, and I know that I have successfully completed my task, but I need to give it more attention. I want to be on top of this instead of waiting until the last minute to make it happen. I want the words I write down to mean more. I will work on this. Tomorrow will probably not be me at my finest either, but I’m on vacation…so cut me a little slack.
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