Loving Who I Am

I don’t feel good today. I don’t know what is wrong with me. I think that I need to shake things up. You know, make some changes. I look forward to what my life will be like one day, but why can’t that one day be today. I think sometimes that I get caught up in this idea that my life has been delayed because I haven’t met the right man, but I’m over that. I told someone today that I like myself pretty much more than anyone else. That might sound slightly vain, but it’s the truth. I love who I am and what I have to offer and I am tired of waiting around for a man to make me feel fulfilled.

I want to be on top of my game. I need to write more. I need to make it my goal to be published. I want to write something clever and something that makes people stop and think. I am more than what you see. I want to be everything that I know that I should be.

I feel like these are the ramblings of a person who is unsure, but I promise you that I am more than sure of who I am. I love that I am independent and that I am strong. I think it’s amazing how I have grown to love myself. I know that if I had met the right guy years ago that I would have been who he wanted me to be and not have grown into myself. I love who I am. Every time I say that I feel as though people might feel I think too highly of myself, but it’s just that I have this deep respect for who I have become. I am strong, and beautiful, and loving, and kind. I have gone through so much and I have come out of it kicking and fighting for my life.

Everything that I have been through has made me who I am today and I wouldn’t change a thing. Each experience that I have had, good or bad, has made me stronger and more self-assured. I would love to know what my future holds, but it’s reassuring to know that I get to determine my future. I am in control and that is something that a few years ago I would have never said. I feel like I have grown up so much. I wish that I could inject this confidence into my younger self, but I won’t have regrets. I will only hold my head up high and keep on going. I’m not sure where this road has me headed, but I am willing to find out.

Some moments are better than others, but I know that tomorrow will be another opportunity to make myself better. I don’t want to squander these moments. I want to embrace every second of my life and make myself a better version of the woman I am today. I want to be EVERYTHING that I can be.