Less Than Perfect

I wish I had it all together. I wish that when I woke up, from that moment on all of the choices that I made were the right ones. I was talking to a good friend today and it got me to thinking about how much pressure we put on ourselves to live up to an idea. I think we project this idea of perfection that everyone else seems to have for us, when in fact, we are the ones with the unrealistic expectations. I truly believe that my parents would be proud of me, no matter what I did, but I have this idea that they expect the world from me. It’s funny how we do that. We make it about everyone else and then when we don’t live up to what we think they want us to, we blame it on them for not being able to live up to it. It seems counterproductive if you ask me.

I know that I will never be perfect, and I need to learn to be ok with that. I need to learn that taking life as it comes at me is going to be just fine. I get so caught up in this idea of what I’m supposed to be that I forget to live sometimes. I want to take my time and make sure that the choices I make are for me. I am tired of blaming everyone else for my unhappiness. I have nothing to be unhappy about. I have a good life with good friends, an amazing family, health, a good job, and a great future ahead of me.

I need to start taking responsibility for my life and my future. I’m ready to see where I can take my life. The challenges before me are slight when you take into consideration everything that I’ve already been through. I’ve faced death and blindness. I’ve had my heart broken and lost loved ones, but I am still standing strong and I look forward to what lies ahead of me. Each day is a new challenge to find out more about who I am. I can’t wait until the day when I can finally look back and say, wow, I’ve had a great life. Don’t get me wrong, I feel that way now, but I look forward to that day.

My life is heading in wonderful direction. I know that each day I am getting closer to the greatest adventure of my life. I have plans and goals and ambitions that can’t be stopped. I know that tomorrow is going to be better than today and that the day after that can only get better. I am tired of putting things on the back burner. Who I am is not quite as great as who I’m going to be. I look ahead of myself. I am tired of looking behind or standing still. I am ready for what tomorrow shall present. My days are only getting better.

And you my friends, shall all play a part.