A Love Letter

Sometimes I sit and wonder where you are. I wonder what you are doing and if you are thinking about me. I get lonely sometimes, you know? When I was younger I assumed that I would find you at a young age, and then I thought I might meet you in college, and then I started to worry that I might never meet you at all. I’m still not sure where you are or when we’ll meet, but I’m not quite as concerned about it as I used to be. You see, I’ve decided that waiting for you has been one of the greatest adventures of my life.

I wonder what you are like. Are you into sports? I hope you don’t mind being an FSU football fan and a Kentucky Wildcats basketball fan (I suppose I could settle for a UNC fan, but there’s no way I would ever be with a Duke or Gators fan!). Are you a nerd like me? I wonder what your favorite book is or who your favorite author might be. I hope you like indie films and indie music, or at least that you will put up with my slightly eclectic tastes.

I’m not easy to put up with, and I haven’t had many relationships. I’m not so good with the relationships, just to give you a heads up. I don’t know why I can’t find someone who fits me, or whom I fit well with. I guess they always say that when I find the right guy I’ll understand why it never worked with anyone else. I suppose that could be the case. I hope you are patient. I know I need someone who is patient and who is will to tell me they love me.

I am definitely one of the most amazing people you will ever meet. I know that when we find each other, we’ll love each other completely. I have so much love to give and I know that one day, I will get to share that love with the man who will be my best friend. I need you to know, that no matter what, I will always love you. We may not always get along. I promise that you will get annoyed with me, and probably fairly easily at that. I am trying. You will definitely have your hands full, but I promise that you will love every moment that we share our lives together.

I wish you were with me now. I wish that we could start forever, today. I know that we are both growing into amazing people right now, and I believe that is why we’re not together at the moment. When we finally meet one another, our life together will be something spectacular.

I look forward to meeting you. I want you to have my whole heart, and I want to know that I have yours.

I know that I’ve messed up in the past. I know that I am so far from perfect. I also know, that you are out there waiting to love this messed up, silly nerd who just can’t help but love her life. I can’t wait to meet you. Hope it’s sooner rather than later. I love you already.